Carah's Blog

Q&A - Eating Disorder, FEARS, Potty Training

I'm not sure what Travis's answer to this is.. but I think ALL mom's can agree on my answer. I fear I am not raising my kids good enough, or I'm not a good enough Mom.  This is something that all Mom's deal with not just me.  To us, raising our kids is THE most important thing we will ever do. It's always in the back of my mind that… "I could have handled that different" "I buy her too many toys" "I yell too much" "Do I play with them enough?"... No matter what you do you feel you could do better.  It's just part of Mommyhood.  :)

Here was my problem with Bug.  I listened to other people to much and didn't follow my Mom instincts.  Everyone told me she should be potty trained by 2.  So many people said… "MY Kids were potty trained by 2!!" Like it was this universal age that is set in stone and if your kid isn't then… WTF??  I knew Alaina wasn't ready.  I started a little after 1.5 years because I felt pressure from outsiders.  This time around.. I will never do that.  I'm going to use my gut instincts.. and I think it will be much easier this time around.  I think it also depends on the Kid. Who knows… maybe Emery will be ready at 1.5 years.

Honestly.. Vlogging is NOT a normal job at all.  It's normal to me, and to people who watch vloggers regularly… but not to other people that aren't familiar with youtube. No matter how long I vlog, people will probably not really get it, or think its weird.. and I have just accepted that. I have never really been one to care what others think about what I do.  I remember always telling people I wanted to be on the Real World SO bad… I even thought about sending a tape LOL.  So many people would say, "REALLY? you would want your life out there for the world to see? NOT ME.. that would be so weird." and for some reason I never thought that way… I'm just not that private of a person. I'm not sure what my parents thought.  My parents are always very supportive of what I do!  I think they had their legitimate concerns.. but that is understandable.  They are very open to it, and they don't mind being in them at all. Travis's brother and Girlfriend also started a vlog channel of their own which was really cool!

At first yes.  It was the first time I had ever talked about it on my channel.. and I had been on youtube for 3 years at that point!  No one knew until then.. so yes, I was a little scared.  But at the same time… it has never been something that has bothered me to talk about. If you watched my eating disoder story video… you will see that I am pretty nonchalant about it. As I said above.. I'm not a private person in the slightest… which is very strange being that I'm so shy.  I don't mind talking about my struggles or experiences.  I have this strong urge to want to help people and inspire people.. and I feel like sharing my life experiences really helps to satisfy that part of me.

Make Others Dreams Come True.

Hey guys!  Sorry I haven't written in a while.  I had been pretty busy lately… but I really wanted to come on here and write a quick blog with my cup of tea by my side.  

A couple days ago a friend and I were talking and I remembered a really important lesson I learned last year.  You know those little Ah-Ha moments that make you feel like you figured everything out… Yeah, it was one of those.  I wanted to come on and write about it.. and also share some love.

So, For about the last year or so… I have been really trying to live by something really important.  The first time I heard this it made so much sense to me and I told myself that I would try my hardest to remember this and live by it when I can.  Thats what I have been doing ever sense.  

Think about those times in your life where something REALLY awesome happens to you.  That time you got your dream job, your dream home, or a scholarship to your favorite school. Think about all the people who went into making that happen. Think about the person that maybe went the extra mile to make it work… or made that extra phone call to make it all come together.  Think about what could have happened if those people weren't involved. EVERY SINGLE dream that you reach doesn't just happen because of you… but because of others as well.  Ever since I read this quote my goal has been to help other YouTubers reach their dreams. Sometimes it's easy to get caught up in the ME, ME, ME of things… Try to switch your mind a little bit and think about what you can do to help OTHERS reach their goals.  Imagine what it would be like if someone took that EXTRA step to help you reach your ultimate dream… it would feel pretty great right?

I wanted to share some love… and let you guys in on some of my FAVORITE youtubers ever.  They aren't huge yet, but they should be…. and I want to help them reach their goals because I know how important their channels are to them.  So, if you feel so inclined… subscribe to them! I think you will love their channels.


Okay, This girl is by far my favorite…. and I almost don't want to share because I want her all to myself… lol… JK, kind of. ;)  She is so funny.. real, and just tells it like it is which I love.  I feel like she has a personality that I have always wanted… and I think thats why I like her so much. Is that weird? Her makeup skills are on point.. and she has inspired me more than once with her makeup tutorials.  Its rare to come across someone that does something new and different.. and this girl is that. She does special FX makeup and everyday makeup…. but she is also just really fun to listen to talk. She needs some recognition people.  Check her out and tell her I sent you...



This girl strangely reminds me a lot of me…. which when you watch her you will probably not agree at all. lol.  I feel like we vlog the same. There is something about her personally that I completely relate to… I don't know why, but we just vlog the same. haha.  If you like my vlogs you will probably like hers.  She also has amazing makeup videos as well!  Her vibe is a little bit edgy/glam which I also love.  But more than anything… Her story telling videos is where its at.  Her "I shit my pants" video is really what got me hooked. She is a makeup artist, an animal lover, and has amazing decorating skills. She is also closer to my age which is hard to come by in this youtube She is just cool… go watch her. :)


This channel I discovered about a year ago and when I first started watching it her passion reminded me a lot of mine and I felt like her channel wasn't getting a fair chance and it made me mad.  So I adopted it and have been trying to grow it ever sense.  This girl is so cute and funny and does some amazing videos.  Her videos are so high quality and nicely edited. I especially love her GRWM vids… I find them relaxing and always watch them when I'm applying makeup in the mornings.  She always does different and fun looks so they never get boring! This is another you tuber that I actually feel inspired by which is rare to find. I mean, look at this picture… not very many people can pull of dark eyes and dark lips. Check her out guys.. I don't think you will be disappointed.

Alright guys… I hope you check out these 3 channels! :) I will probably mention them in my next random faves vid… so those of you who are avid watchers I apologize in advance. :)  Don't forget to let them know I sent you.. and don't forget to hit subscribe if you like them.  Also… Think about what you can do to help someone else reach their dream… :) Let me know in the comments if you have ever gone the extra mile to help someone reach a goal! I would love to hear your stories… Plus they might be inspiring to others!

This Will CHANGE Your Life.

You know those times when you are scrolling through someones Instagram.. and you awkwardly realize you are about a year or 2 deep into their pictures…. Yeah that was me today. BUT… I found this… and it struck me SO hard.. it was like this awakening.  It's the most perfect thing. 

A little less than a year ago, I decided I was going to stop reading hate.  I stopped seeking it out.  It's one thing to come across hateful comments on my youtube videos or twitter… But actively seeking it out is another story. One day I decided that it was bringing me down and it was affecting me too much, and I HATED IT. I am an incredibly sensitive person so I had to make a choice that was best for me. I stopped reading it and going to those horrible depths of the internet where trolls lurk... and my life has been SO MUCH BETTER you have no idea.  Not reading that unnecessary hate made me realize that what those random people are saying officially has NO IMPORTANCE.  If the person they are talking about doesn't hear them… then what they are saying is just going into the universe…. NOT the place they want it most… in my head.  

When I read this quote it took me back to where I was a year ago when I stopped reading. This is something that I would consider printing off and hanging on my wall. It's the most beautiful reminder and something I think everyone should read everyday.

YOUR CHOICES ARE YOURS.  You can do whatever you want with this beautiful life.  You can own your mistakes and own your successes.. thats what makes to so awesome.  If you want to make your life amazing.. It's up to you to do that and no one else.  If someone wants to hate on you and the decisions you make… it doesn't matter because you can feel proud that you have paved the path that you have… and that includes the GOOD and BAD.  I think this is also freeing knowing that making bad decisions is something that you have to own.. and the consequences that come with it is something that you have to deal with.  I'm not saying that it a bad or negative way.. but in a completely motivating way.  It's okay to make bad choices.. but owning them is part of the process of living a better more positive life.

This quote is probably the most motivating and inspiring thing I have read.. and makes me realize that NO ONE can make my life better.. and NO ONE can make my life worse but me.  If someone wants to hate on me and tell me I'm not doing something right GO AHEAD.  PLEASE…. WASTE YOUR TIME…. let that negativity POUR out of your mouth until in infects you own life.  Because at the end of the day… MY choices are what matters… and that means I will live my life the way I want.. and I will do EXACTLY what makes me happy. I will do what i think is best for my kids, I will do what I think is best for my pets, my husband, my family and ME.

Let me know in the comments what your all time favorite quote is!!