Carah's Blog

KIDS - Easy or Hard?

This is a very interesting question that I was excited to write about because honestly.. I don't know how I'm going to answer it.  That's one reason I like blogging.  I just start writing and sometimes things come out and it's easier for me to lay out my thoughts.

So, Is having kids easier or harder than I thought…. hmmmm.  

I think it's a little bit of BOTH.  As a lot of you know, I was not a kid person or a baby person before I had kids.  I knew I always wanted kids.. but I was never around kids all that much so I didn't really know what it was going to be like at all. I never had younger siblings, I never babysat, and just never really spent too much time around kids and babies.  When I got pregnant with Alaina… I was a little bit terrified.  I remember we were trying to get pregnant.. but when I read the positive test, I cried… because I was scared.  Yep. I said it.  I had NO IDEA what to expect… and I knew I couldn't back out now. lol.  I knew from that moment my life was going to be forever different… and I didn't know how.  

In all honesty, I thought it would be easier than it was to have a baby I think.  I didn't realize how LITTLE sleep you get.  I didn't realize how often you had to get up in the night. I didn't realize how many diapers you had to change. I didn't realize how worried you would be… or how bad you would feel when they were crying at 3am because they were teething. I remember sitting in my chair nursing Alaina in the middle of the night for the 3rd time SOOOO freaking tired thinking "WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THIS AGAIN!"...I was so tired. I remember that lifestyle change of going from no kids… free to do what you wanted anytime you wanted, to not having that anymore.  I remember having to make decisions that I didn't know how to make like… when I should ween her, when I should start solids… if I should give her formula, and how much… should I take her to the doctors, should I let her cry it out, should I give her Tylenol, am I going to eff up and make a wrong decision? All that stuff was so new and different… and thats what made it hard.

BUT…… 

When I had Alaina I realized how instinctual EVERYTHING was.  when I was pregnant I thought that I wouldn't know how to do anything.  I wouldn't know how to hold her, I wouldn't know her "different cries".  I wouldn't know how to change a diaper, or how to get her to stop crying.  I thought that I wouldn't be able to get my own baby to stop crying…… I was really scared because I knew nothing. That's when having a kid was EASIER than I thought.  It all came to me out of instincts.  I could read my baby better than ANYONE.  If I didn't know something I could ask my doctor at the 100 check ups you go to at the beginning of their life.  It felt so much more natural to me than I thought it would.  In that aspect… it was easier. :)

Now… Having 2 kids. Is this life harder than I thought? NO. I thought when I had Emery I was going to have the same feelings I did with bug.  But doing it twice made things soooo much easier and so much smoother.  Every phase she goes through seems faster.  I have been able to savor those little hard times differently because I know they will NOT last forever.  In fact, they are usually really short.  I am much more laid back with Emery and I don't put as much thought into it OR as much pressure on myself which is important.  I don't feel as sleep deprived and don't ask myself "WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS AGAIN" in the middle of the night. I am happy to say, having 2 is easier than I thought. I think when you have the first baby your lifestyle has to change SO much and it's a little hard to get used to at times.  When you have the second.. your life already revolves around another little human so it's a lot easier in that sense.

How would you guys answer this question? Lets be honest and open and supportive! Thats what I want this blog to be about.  I want you to feel okay to share your feelings.